Yeah they're definitely family.
I know, my last iguanas sickness dragged out and it was pure horror to live with that. Every day I expected to find him dead in a pool of blood.
Tomorrow when I wake up I'm afraid to find Nelissa dead in a pool of brown slime.
So there is a point where life isn't worth living. So I know it would be for the best for her sake, but when she's gone I'm left with only my own emotions.
I also confess that I didn't think I would get her home alive today. So I cried non-stop for hours.
Come on now, Jossan, you're better than this and I'm sure that if your pets could verbally communicated with you, they would express how unhappy seeing you this way makes them. Life is hard and it's unfortunately been dragging you down a lot lately, and I can understand how you must feel in this situations given the fact that the last time I seriously cried was when the fact that my last dog died finally sunk in, but it's better to cry than to hold it all in. Whatever happens, don't you dare give up on yourself, they wouldn't want that and none of your friends here do either. I know it may be easier said than done, but you need to persevere, I hope everything goes better than you expect and that you'll continue to live until things get better if they unfortunately don't. You're a good person, whether you agree with it or not, so take care of yourself no matter what and remember...while we may not be there physically, you do have friends here, you don't have to just feel completely alone if the walls start closing in on you. I confess that I hope you'll be alright, I'm sure a lot of us do.